Last Night It’s currently a little after 6:00 a.m. and I haven’t been able to sleep. I spent some time thinking about things M’s mentioned to other people. If I objected, showed any bit of outrage or discomfort, I was told to be quiet. I … Continue reading Brain In Overdrive
In keeping myself accountable and maintaining my self-care, I finally got a vitamin subscription. I figured it would be cheaper in the long run, rather than buy three or four bottles every few months. We’ll see how it goes! I’m still not sleeping very well, … Continue reading All The Musings
I've been up all night, doing laundry and playing some games. I'm really trying to stay focused on the things I need to. My selfcare, my kitchen adventures, and the menial tasks that I often ignore. I'm still having a rough time, that has zero … Continue reading It Has To Be Me
It's been maybe about 2 weeks since M and I spoke last. Since he made it clear that we had been just friends this entire time, I kind of wasn't available for him one night. I wasn't trying to be petty, but honestly I'm going … Continue reading Fuck
Rant I am not a great conversational, that is widely known. People that I speak to on a regular basis figure this out early on. They are going to be the ones who have to carry the conversation, ask the questions and deal with that … Continue reading Why Do I Do This??
M called and caught me up on his day, yesterday. We touched on some things from Sunday and he reiterated he definitely wants to spend more time together. I fucking love it when he refers to himself as my man. He’s really taken the initiative … Continue reading It Got Rocky, But We’re Good Now
Slowly getting back into my routine. Back is still spasming from time to time but overall I’m feeling much better. It can be really easy to focus on the negative, and given this past month it feels like it’s been nothing but bad things. Overall, … Continue reading Let’s Keep This Train Moving Folks
Up early, what a surprise right? Ran a few errands yesterday, first time in about a week that I’ve been truly mobile. My back started to spasm again when I got home so I laid down and took a nap. And while I only had … Continue reading We All Could Use Some Scream Therapy
So M called last night while I was sleeping. I didn't call because it was late when I woke up and I was upset. I texted him just a bit ago and he told me to get better soon. I guess that's that. Still blows … Continue reading March Was Just A Bitch
I honestly didn't think I hurt myself this bad. I found a position to lay in that relieves some of the pain. I'm laying in bed dictating this post so if I don't move I'm absolutely fine! The doctor's visit is out of the question … Continue reading Everything Is Ouch
Under The Willowtree 