My friend Liam and I had a pretty lengthy call about all the changes I plan to make. He expressed concern about me overcompensating. Don’t get me wrong, he’s totally supportive of self improvement. He’s a life coach after all. He feels I may be doing it for the wrong reasons. I don’t feel that I am, sometimes being an introvert holds me back. It’s who I am at my core, so I don’t think I run the risk of completely overhauling myself.

Knowing this and wanting to test me, the other day he suggested I join a podcast he and his best friend are thinking of starting. I mean, thanks, but no? He doesn’t have a problem with my quietness on the phone, but dead air on a podcast is an entirely different story. He scoffs at that and thinks I would be amazing. He says I definitely have a great voice for it. He’s also trying to get me on cam for the webinars. No dude, just no.

He’s also encouraging me to take my “business” seriously. Like, don’t use quotation marks when typing business. I still don’t feel like it’s one, I still don’t have a website or cards. I still don’t feel they are that necessary. I most definitely am not performing open heart surgery, I do little projects here and there. He asked if that’s all I wanted to do, was I satisfied with that. Having those will make me look and feel more professional and that in turn will motivate me. Also, I should go ahead and upgrade my blog and really make it special. Just to inspire me to continue with it, because I agree, this is important. It helps me in so many ways. I still have the upgrade in my cart, it’s been sitting there for months now.

It’s investing in myself and that makes me uneasy. Why should I have a pimped out blog? I’m not doing anything amazing here, it’s just me sending out my nonsense into the void. It isn’t making me money, so what’s the point? Why should I have things real professionals do? He says it doesn’t matter, it’s equivalent to getting dressed every morning. I could stay in my pj’s all day but getting dressed and having a routine makes me feel better.

So, lesson? Investing in myself is healthy and okay. He made me repeat that 5 times, btw. When I laughed, he threatened to make me write it 100 times (cue flashback of actually having to write lines *shudder*) 

This is all part of letting go of my insecurities. I’m determined to stomp every one of them out of my brain for good