I'm absolutely somewhat buzzed at the moment and my ankle hurts because i twisted it while dancing.. but enough about that. Is it a surprise im missing M again? Im not getting into the stupid fight we had about a stupid chatroom and how i … Continue reading feeling drunk, might delete later… if i remember

I think saying things have been a roller coaster recently doesn't quite paint the picture. I'm not sure what happened, I'm not sure why things continue to be such a shit show. What I am sure of though, is that I am fucking done with … Continue reading Can You Hear My Internal Screaming?

Another early early morning, it's really quiet and still in the house. I love this time. I can think and most of the time, write. I took a nap yesterday and when I woke up my youngest was here, his dad had been admitted to … Continue reading Candy Corn Season And Lovely Me Time

Early start this morning, really really early. I feel another shift, a pretty decent one. Nothing negative so that's something. Did a mini workout and started on some work, food prepped and I'm feeling pretty ok today. A friend left a message telling me about … Continue reading A Little Peace Of Mind

It's been a time of reflection lately. I always say that I don't have any regrets, I have one though. I was best friends with a girl in junior high. I briefly mentioned her in a previous post. Christina had moved to CA from TX … Continue reading Can I Have The Rainbow Without All The Rain? Pretty Please?

People have a lot to say about the homeless, that they are lazy and take zero pride in themselves. I know that can be true, but it certainly wasn't true in my situation. I met a guy at work, dated for 2 months and ended … Continue reading Storytime: Homeless

It's really easy to get caught up in emotions, there's so much going on in the world right now and it's easy to just let things get you down. Let things distract you and feel like it's hopeless, I think that's where I've been. I … Continue reading Pity Parties Are A-OK

It's been a crappy time, been in a funk and putting off doing anything at all. It's easy to say its because of M, but honestly I'm just done with everything. I reactivated my Twitter and that was a mistake.. things just seem beyond repair … Continue reading I Give Up (For Today At Least)

So this is just a vent because I'm so fucking tired.Tired of being an idiot. Tired of believing M gives a damn, tired of everything. So after completely disappearing last December, M gets a hold of me. We have 2 really great calls, well 1 … Continue reading