I have been dealing with a ton of feelings lately. I mean, it's really no surprise, I'm just on an emotional roller coaster. I want to believe in what M says, I want to trust and look forward to the future. I'm just filled with … Continue reading Not A Fun Ride
Author: avignon
Perfectly imperfect me
Brain Needed A Rewiring
Feeling so much better, I've let go of alot and vowed to just things be. I'm not going to stress and continue doing what I need to, to maintain my sanity and self care. It's the very least I can do for myself. Work wise, … Continue reading Brain Needed A Rewiring
On Track Again
Things are working out, M is back and better than ever. I haven't talked to him about anything, I don't really want to. Things are so good with us right now and I just want to bask in that glorious glow. He's at peace, mostly, … Continue reading On Track Again
I Don’t Know
I had a dream about a week after M and I started talking again, it was a strange dream to have and I'm not quite sure what to make of it, even now. We were going grocery shopping, with his son and his best friend. … Continue reading I Don’t Know
Dude, You Still Don’t Love Me?
I responded to a couple of posts last week on Linkedin. One was about loyalty, the other, forgiveness. I think of myself as both loyal and forgiving for the most part. Sure, there have been instances when neither was warranted, so I moved on. I … Continue reading Dude, You Still Don’t Love Me?
Over The Mountain
Whew I feel like the past few weeks have been such a whirlwind. I've reached a turning point when it comes to M. I feel like the heaviness has lifted and I can really let go of my bitterness and disappointment. I feel so good … Continue reading Over The Mountain
Damn it, man!
I've been able to push the past year to a corner of my mind. I didn't ask the question I needed to because I didn't want to hear the lie and I didn't want to hear the truth I allowed the situation to unfold and … Continue reading Damn it, man!
What A Shit Ending
Still struggling with what I want to say, but I miss M so much. I'm still mourning the end of whatever it was we had. Today (Friday) was difficult, I just wanted to reach out and say hey but it feels wrong. Just notice me, … Continue reading What A Shit Ending
Florida Doesn’t Hold A Candle To This Fiasco
I haven't looked at this blog since I created it and with some, motivation, here I am. A friend says I really need to write things down and I know he's right. No matter how comfortable I am with someone, I still struggle to share … Continue reading Florida Doesn’t Hold A Candle To This Fiasco
Under The Willowtree 