Well, the end of the year is bananas. We booked the trip last weekend and I will be leaving January 8th. I leave in 17 days!!! We are getting extremely excited and conversations now revolve around our plans, finding a house and just how amazing we know it’s going to be. I cannot believe that I actually get to have talks with him about living together and it not be a “some day” thing. This is the best Christmas gift ever.

The person who is coordinating the trip made a comment about getting me home and M said that made him go “Aww, she IS coming home”. Of course there is sadness about moving away from my boys and my home state. There’ll be visits and phone calls. They’re both adults and living their lives, so the amount of time that we would be spending together would be limited anyways. I suppose though it would still be time spent together. In any case, the opportunities that I have now are thrilling. M and I are going to be diving into the companies and anything else we can dream up.

2022 is definitely starting off the best possible way. It feels like I have been fighting a losing battle for so long and now, I truly feel victorious. This isn’t just about him, it’s about me and my life. Putting away everything that doesn’t serve me, finally severing those ties and facing endless possibilities.

As weird as this may sound, I feel like I’ve finally shown up for my life.