Pretty uneventful weekend, however I got a few things accomplished. Packed up what I won’t be using for now, did some deep cleaning, outlined some writing plots. As always, lots of thinking was done. So this week, I will be signing up for at least one class. Probably sign language, I’m worried about being able to see things well. I just want to be able to do basic communication should the need ever arise. I also contemplated getting a tat this month. I’ve never been able to decide on what I want though and I assume that will be my problem this time.

Felt good to make some plans for the week, what work I did have ended a week or so ago and I haven’t been actively looking for more. No reason really, just didn’t feel like working and that’s the perk of being your own boss, right? Then a friend contacted me, asking if I could recommend a VA for him. I told him I was available and he was pretty happy about that. So I’ll be modding a webinar as well as general office stuff. Really nervous about the modding even though I’ve done it before. Still worried I’ll screw up and do some serious damage. I know he won’t flip out and make me feel like shit, but this is work and it’s important. I just need to take it slow and if I mess up, I need to not shut down so I can correct it quickly. Easy peasy! Hopefully!

I’m far from perfect and I know I can be a frustrating person to have around. I’m ok with that, I’m just trying to be a good person. There are times when I feel so inadequate and lost. There’s so much I don’t like about myself, but there’s alot more that I do. I’ve been taking steps to be healthier and love the results. I dropped from a size 18 to a 12/14 in 6 months. Tshirts went from a XL to a L and a Medium in some cases. I’ve been praying more and trying to reach out more. I started talking to someone on Twitter, I’m just trying to be there for this person and maybe that will help ease some things for them. I haven’t heard from them for a few days though and things weren’t great. I’ve added them to my daily prayer and that’s all I can do. It’s just really important to me that I continue trying to be friend

Not much else to say, but I did have another grocery shopping dream. And yes, I did dream about M and his kid, they came to stay with me. Nothing strange about the dreams thankfully. I think my mind is getting some rest, I’ve been playing puzzle games, addicted to escape room ones. But puzzle games in general and I really believe it’s helping to clear out some stuff. I heard this line in a song, and it just made me stop for a second

I believe one day all mistakes will be explained ~ Divine – Desi Valentine

One can hope